Archive for May, 2007

Memoir of a freshie

I’m a very tired girl these days…but today’s the last official day as a freshie, a sure sign that the tiredness is soon going to end. Never again would the sophomores, juniors and seniors, and graduates call out ‘HEY FWESHIEEE!!’ in that contemptuous but amused manner. In September, we would be the ones who laugh at the poor confused freshmen as they try to make head or tail of just the academic block, which is in a hexagon shape, and where all doors and walls and pillars and auditoriums look exactly the same.

 

I remember I had a map that they handed out in the orientation, but even that didn’t help me, because I first had to figure out where the main entrance was in order to make some sense of it…but the main entrance looked just like the other three entrances…soo..??? Kya karti?

 

Oh, I got lost so many times in these first two weeks—even though the LUMS campus is not a patch on the

Punjab
University campus, and certainly nothing compared to universities abroad…but still, I was used to a renovated old house and its gardens as a school for twelve years.

 

Well, it’s not as if I’m getting out of here, but the freshie year was a real test of one’s metal, and I can just say I’m glad I’m out of it. I’m sure I’m ready for the army now…because now I know that while there is a minimal amount of ragging at the beginning of the year, there are numerous funny things that our beloved old seniors get up to. One is the Daku Day, when they all dress up in black, draw huge black moles on their faces (girls and boys alike), and take dandas, or toy guns and go about harassing students, instructors and librarians, robbing them of money, cell phone, ID cards (college and national). Of course, everything but the money is returned to the owners (for a small fee). Losers…

 

After that, it’s a lot of fun at the end of the spring quarter. There’s the Bhekari Day…the oh-so-mature seniors go around wearing ragged clothes and carrying placards which say ‘Meray chotay chotay man baap hain’…there was also this guy who went about screaming with the sign ‘Main bol nahin sakta’. What weirdoes…they had us all in stitches for a whole week with days like these…except for Daku Day, of course. Let’s see…Paindoo Day, “yo” Day…it was a real pity that ‘cross-dress Day’ got cancelled…no wait, on the other hand, I think that was a relief.

 

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Twenty-five, beautiful, intelligent…she had always been everything that a girl like me would want to be. I followed her upstairs to help with her packing—she was going back the next day. Before going back down, she went into the bedroom where nobody had slept since that day…I followed, thinking she might need some help. But she opened the closet, and buried her face in her late father’s clothes. Inhaling, she broke into silent sobs…I turned and ran.

I found an old school register in my clothes closet yesterday…the last pages were full to bursting with at least twenty different poems…when did all that stop? There was a time when the instinct used to be plentiful and spontaneous…

A sort of old, obscure song drifts past…

‘I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of placeI never wanted something more than this’

Two thoughts at the same time…one was to dwell in the words (always loved these lines, don’t know why)…and the others to classify them as half or near rhymes…what’s happening to me?

The TA came down from the back of the room to recite “Dile Nadaan Tujhay Hua Kya Hai”— that rapturous verse from Ghalib. He didn’t recite very well, but it seemed like he felt everything; his face convulsed with pleasure as he got to the most powerful line. It was a moment where so much could be seen…that childish face twisted with the pain of the lines at his finger…such a childish face under that mass of premature gray hair…

Finally, I turned around and told my TA that his articles rocked, that he was a brilliant writer and should go to many heights, and that I’ve been a constant reader for many months…turned out he loved the idea of a fan following. I came out of the TA room with his whole present personal life at my fingertips… he left two jobs in Karachi to get the double TA-ship that was being offered to him here. Oh yeah, and he’s going to be jobless after this quarter.

I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep…twenty centuries of stony sleep has rocked my cradle too; and there are no alarms to wake me up…but insomnia has taken over.

I have no idea how to end these things…

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